I have had eating disorder issues since I was 8. I am 50 now. Two years ago I finally got to the point where, at over 250 lbs, I was ready to top myself or do something completely different. I had been to therapists and
Weight Watchers and tried dieting and all the rest, having temporary success with some of these things, but always fallen in a heap and put back on the weight and more.
I knew that the problem was to do with my emotions more than anything else. Nothing that only addressed the physical issues had ever worked for me. Two years ago I joined Overeaters Anonymous. It is a free self-help group which works the same way as Alcoholics Anonymous. This is the only place I have ever felt totally at home with people who completely understand where I am coming from about food and my relationship with it. It is a spiritual (not religious) program, not a diet and calories club. You can find out about it on the web if you are interested. There are online meetings as well as face to face. I wouldn't be without it.
In the first year, I lost 100 lbs and have lost another 10 or so in the last year. According to my scales at home, I am now 137. I started exercising gently early in the piece, just going for a walk every day. I didn't think of it as exercise, which I hated the idea of then. At that point I thought about it as meditation. That worked for me. The walking very slowly changed to jogging. By the eighth month, I was ready to join a gym. I have been going there regularly ever since. From hardly being able to walk up my drive, I can now jog for an hour without difficulty, and do regular
weight training.
Binge eating disorder is the pits, but I have to say that I have found a way out that works for me. Please feel free to respond or email me if you would like to know more about my experiences with it.