I know some of you out there have these...I'm looking to relate.
Today I pushed it on the squats pretty good. I almost never do high reps (over 6) and today i did 3 sets of 12, at accelerated rest periods, and all exercises were done high reps at short rest periods. My gym (hole in the wall) is not air conditioned and it was about 85 outside today.
Anyways, for those who haven't been around for a few years and don't know my history, I had developed Atrial Fibrillation (heart arrhythmia) when i was 23. Until that happened, I never had problems with anxiety. After that though, i woudl get anxiety attacks. I had surgery to repair the arrhythmia in 2005 and since then been fine. On occasion, if my heart skips a beat or something after a workout, it makes me a little nervous and i start to get anxious. 9 times out of 10 I can just put that out of my mind and it goes away as fast as it tried to come on. But today was something different.
I had a major panic attack after my workout, on the drive home from the gym. I started to feel nervous at the end of the workout. My legs were wabbly already (mind could take this as a nervous shake), and my haert was skipping a few beats, which was making me a little nervous. On the drive home, it skipped a beat and sped up and got me pretty nervous. Before I had a chance to put it out of my mind, it happened again, and then again. I got very tense and felt it spiraling out of control. My mom wasn't far from where i was so i literally FLOORED it to her house thinking I was going to pass out or something was going on. Basically i felt very scared and my heart rate
was up to about 130-140 (not that high but high for being at rest).
When i got to my mom's, my hands were numb and very shakey. I went in and sat down. She was freaked. I started to calm down and left after about 5 or 6 minutes. I just felt safer knowing someone else was around. (I don't have a cell phone either).
I'm looking for people to relate to me (make me feel better). USUALLY, the way I cope iwth this (i refuse to get on drugs for it), is I just put it out of my mind or recognize "this is anxiety" and just ignore it, and it goes right away. But today went into a full panic attack.
This coulda been combinations of adrenaline from the workout, nervous about my legs shaking and heart rate being up, coulda been a little heat exhausted...who knows.
Been a long time since I've been that scared though. I'm still a little shaken up by it. This happened about 45 minutes ago.