Sorry I sounded so spastic and desparate! I'm just tired of doing the wrong things and not getting anywhere!
Please BRAT BE MEAN! Wow. As I was reading your post, I was laughing my ass off. It's so funny because you hit it right ON the head! "You eat like a bodybuilder with a heavier plan than you mentioned, you train like a runner (with an ab training obsession) and you write like someone who desires weight loss!" I didn't realize that I was juggling so much, and everything is contradicting! I guess I want the 'workout body' so bad that I'm willing to do ANYTHING to get it, especially since I can actually SEE it's obtainable! If you would have told me this back in Jan/Feb, I would have LAUGHED my ass to the crazy bin! I was in a rough relationship and since I was already heavy (about a size 14), eating helped me out. I didn't have anyone to tell me to stop killing myself.
Yeah, I've been told by family and BF that I should be ecstatic that I've gotten this far. When I look in the mirror, I still see the fat girl in school. Even in HS, I was a size 12/13 but I was athletic - I played 4 sports all 4 years and was captain of most of them. Even in Jr Co, I played VB and SB and cheered and I could outlift most of the bball boys (it was funny!) So I'm trying my hardest to get over 'I'm still fat' when I look in the mirror. I guess I still think that because I still have the same shape. I was looking at Laura's progressive pics and I said 'now wait a minute, I have her upper body - her arms, shoulders, chest - but why don't I have her stomach?' You know those commercials where the screen is divided horizontally into 3 sections and they have 3 people standing there and they move the pics around, putting different heads and feet and torso on ea other? To me, when I look in the mirror, that's what I see - I have a workout upper and lower body w/ a couch potatoe's stomach!
Back to what I was getting at - I just moved up to Lombard about 1 1/2 months ago to start a new job. My family is in Southern IL. I've been home a couple times since then (I'm a daddy's girl) and some of the family hasn't seen me in a few months. Dad on the other hand has seen me the most. Labor Day wkend I was just feeling ok about myself. I haven't really gotten to the point of 'WOW, I used to have to shop at Lane Bryant's for clothes and would have to try them on, but now, I can go to any store and pick out size 8 and I know it's going to fit!' I realize that but it didn't sink in...until I went home. My family was really giving me compliments and telling me not to lose any more weight because I look great now and if I lose any more I'd look sick! Saying that made me realize that I should be proud of how I look and walk around with confidence! When I came back up here, my BF could tell a difference. He's like, what's going on with you? And I told him that I just realize that I look damn good now, I was pretty before but now I'm beautiful and I'm going to walk around with that confidence! He was like 'it's about time!'
"This is what I see.
1. You want more than anything to improve the look of your stomach.
2. You want to be able to run a marathon.
3. You want to work out with weights but you have no idea what your goal should be.
So now you have to choose."
Well, Brat and Lady, with that said, I know in order to get fat off you have to do cardio and you have to watch what you eat, so to keep me motivated (because I work better w/ goals, plus a coworker got me onto it) I started a beginners marathon schedule. I'm supposed to follow their 18 wk schedule, which includes running 4 times a wk, following the mileage on the schedule, plus 1 other day of other cardio for an hr. I figured that way, I wouldn't get bored of the 30min-1hr on the treadmil or elliptical, day in and day out. Do I want to be able to run a marathon? That would be cool but that's not my TOP goal...
I got turned on to weight training in school for sports. I really don't know what my goals should be for this. I do drop sets, 3 sets, with the first one always doing 15 reps. I don't know if this is a lot of weight but... last wk my last set, I finished at:
Leg Squats - 125 lbs
Leg Press - 185 lbs
With Dumbbells:
Bi Curls - 25lb ea.
Tri Pushback - 20 lb
Tri Pull - 30 lb
Can't remember the rest...
I do drop sets because I believe it keeps my muscles nice and big. I'm not really trying to bulk up, but I know that with more muscle mass you burn more fat. Plus, I like the definition! Is this my top goal, no...
"What is your priority?" - To lose the rest of the fat off my body (I don't have too much other fat any where else besides my stomach and torso. My leg fat has drastically gone down the last wk from the running so my ratio there would be low. My arm fat, I don't have any. And I was sitting at a 40 D when I started, and now I'm in 36/38 B's so there's not too much other fat there and I pray to God he doesn't take the rest of THAT off! LOL
"When do you want to accomplish it by?" Is yesterday do-able? Well, I know it's taken me 4 months to get this far so I know it'll probably take me another 4 months. I would like to see a difference before I go home again though, which is Thanksgiving. But I might go home in a month. I know this is a slow process; I didn't get this way over night and I'm not going to lose it over night either!
"Is it reasonable timeframe given your past experience and resources available?" I believe 4 months is a reasonable time frame. But it would be nice to start the new year looking my best!
"How motivated or commited are you?" I'm extremely motivated. I've rededicated myself to my workout, pushing myself as if my BF is there pushing me. My biggest problem is the eating. My family likes to eat so it's hard to say no to things I REALLY enjoy, like chocolate, sweets, etc. The fast food thing is easy to say no to because I really don't enjoy it. However, I do love pasta and bread and that's been hard to give up. True, you're not supposed to give up an entire food group, but I knew I was intaking too many carbs this way, so I've backed down on them. I do know I need more fiber so I was going to get whole wheat/whole grain pasta and bread so I can kick the cravings (like when I want a sandwich). It also is hard when ppl at work bring in food, like bagels, cinnamon rolls, pastries, and oh yesterday was chocolate fudge brownies. But I had will power and didn't have any! I have heard though, that dark chocolate contains flavinoids which are good for you.
I've also found that I can do great with my eating, not giving in to anything, Mon and Tues. But by Wed and Thurs, it's like 'I've gotta have!' Friday can be so-so. Sat/Sun are my cheat days. I'm trying to cut back on them though. I know you're only supposed to have a cheat MEAL not a cheat DAY or WKEND, but going from eating whatever I want and then not being able to is REALLY hard - a constant struggle. So I try to be good during the wk and treat myself on Sat &/or Sun. But also, it's funny because it seems the more I eat bad on the wkend, the smaller I seem to be on Mon/Tues! Why is this? Is it because I'm shocking my system?
"What are you willing to give up to reach that goal?" I've already given up a lot, considering I was eating whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, to not eating those things at all, or at least 6 days a wk. I could take my cheat Wkends to Cheat Day... Even though most of the time, I don't really cheat on Sun. I might have a small blizzard from DQ that day and that's it. What do you think would be good to give up?
"1. You want more than anything to improve the look of your stomach. So now you have to choose." This is what I choose as my TOP #1 GOAL. I think my arms and legs look nice right now (of course everything could always be improved upon). But for now, that's what I want to work on. My #1 goal is to be able to see my abs! I want to be able to wear those low rise pants with the short shirts, showing off abs, like Janet Jackson! She has some killer abs! Like I said, I know they're there. I can feel them and they're pretty hard, but I have all this fat on top of them and I don't like it! This flat tire must be changed! It has to go! LOL
Thanks for everyone's help. It really helps talking to real females that have gone through or going through the same things! I was going to go
grocery shopping - what should I be getting? Any suggestions on how to switch up cooking chicken, fish?
This morning, I had a serving of oatmeal w/ Splenda and an apple. I'm getting hungry now too! It's so hard to NOT eat because I think it's gonna make my body eat the fat it has already! Since I'm running around Sat/Sun, it's hard to get in all my liquids. Anyway, thanks and I look forward to hearing back!
What Green Tea do you suggest? I have been getting Lipton 100% Natural Green Tea or Celestial Seasons Green Tea. To me, it all tastes the same, but I was buying the cheaper stuff.
Thermo DynamX were the Fat Burners that I was taking but I'll stop if that's what everyone is saying to do!
I started back on Vit C and
Chromium Picolinate. Is there any certain dosage I should be taking, or just what the directions say?
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I have friends that are trainers there. My BF worked there PT as a trainer for a min.