I have finally decided to quit smoking. I'm only 20 and have been smoking sense I was in the Late 17's.. Mostly for fitness, but I'm tired of being self conscious about the way I smell. I've tried to quit thousands of times, but have failed miserably. I also figured that I if I had something else to help me, such as a journal where people would look and would know if I had a fag and then would think I'm a failure, would help with the quitting process. Also I decided to put this up here to maybe show what the process would feel like for people who are going to quit as well. Also, if you have any tips, PLease tell them to me.
Last Cig EVER was smoked at 1:30 AM Central TIme on Wednesday April 11th, 2006.
Day 1. April 11th. 10:50pm
Well. I've gone longer without smoking. But I've noticed that when you know you are quiting, it's a little tougher. I've noticed that I would always have smoked on a certain time or after a certain event, such as I would always smoke after a meal, or at 11 oclock at night and once I get up in the morning. I think the hardest time was after that big good meal I had after todays workout. I don't think the problem is quiting smoking, it's getting out of the routine that you have done for the past 3 years of your life. I think of it like, I've always put the toilet seat up when I peed, I doubt one day I will be able to stop puting it up. I'll have to practice and it'll take weeks of peeing all over the seat before I remember and get it perfect. I've noticed, I'm just a little angry..
I've been wanting to quit for awhile. I need to get back into shape for rugby. I'm not using any nicotine gum or patches, I've had friends who said they didn't help. It's kinda like you wouldn't give an alcoholic a beer to help him along. Also I can save the money I buy on cigs to become a
premier member here!
If this is in the wrong section, feel free to move. I figured this is a journal.. so it'd go with the
journal section?
Day 2 April 12 10:13 PM
Well.. it's not really that bad. I feel like I'm starting to "withdrawel". I figured if any day that I would cave in to a smoke would be today at college. I had to give a big speech today, 5-8 minutes long, and with my social anxiety (which is why I started smoking I think), I would usually smoke a bunch and be on a nice nicotine high. But I didn't. And After, I would probally have a celebratory smoke, but no. Even after being offered one was still good. Getting out of the routine is definitally the hardest. I didn't sleep very well last night, I felt jittery.
Today was in my mind the first real day I would go into class and not be worried that people smelled smoke. And today was the first day in a long time that I acctually smelled someone else who had just smoked. Didn't smell good. I figure Day3-5 will be the hardest, and this Saturday Night will definitally be the worst (Friends 21st bday party).. We will see. I figure I've gone this far, no sense in fing it up now.
Day 3 8:44 pm
Well.. still not a big deal today. I'm just waiting for something crazy to happen. I acctually went into the gas station and didn't buy cigs. I bought a Butterfinger though, but I figured it would be ok. Hmm.. We will see how tonight and tomorrow go.
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