nick's journal.

br9divided · 08-Mar-06, 03:11 AM

well im going to do this again. im pissed off at myself for not trying hard enough.
ive been working out for some time but it just isnt working... im damn skinny.
i need to stop messing around and dammit just do it AH!!!

i know im just going to have a hard time gaining weight... everyone in my family does. but i did get serious for a while and gained a lot of muscle.

procrastination is my enemy.
im going to change things... i know i need to eat more. so from now on i WILL eat 3 oversized meals a day... 4 if i can afford it .. which will be hard because of my amazing paying job and college..... but i have to do it.

nd i cannot waste time anymore.
tomorrow im setting the alarm EARLY ! im going to the damn gym. no more sleeping in, dreading when i must leave for work.

im going ATLEAST 3 days a week. im spliting it up wit heavy, low rep, compund lifts

chest, sholders, triceps
back, forearms, biceps
legs, stomatch.

im seriously just fed up with this. i know i can change it and the only thing holding me back is me. i have no real excuses.
so, wish me luck.

**.V.** · 08-Mar-06, 07:59 AM

Good luck. Saw your other two threads. Cursor will give you some great nutrition pointers after you answer his questions. Ironman gave you some most excellent lifting info. Now all you've got to do is keep at it and make it work. Sorry you feel your progress is too slow but muscle growth just doesn't happen over night. It takes a lot of time, dedication, and hard work.

br9divided · 08-Mar-06, 12:11 PM

thanks )

got up early like i said i would. have my gym glothes on.. about ready to leave right after i get some food. and i still dont work for 5 hours. woo.

br9divided · 09-Mar-06, 02:35 AM

today was good. i still think i should have eaten more but i dont have the money.. i get payed tomorrow though. thinking about buying some more protein shakes. the metrx protien bars are good .. ive been using them but theyre like 2 bucks a bar.. 36 grams of protein tho.. i think.
hmm im really tempted to go work out again tomorrow morning. i feel like i could do it everyday. save weekends? i dono... i seem to recover fast so im just going to do w/e

tim_mcf · 09-Mar-06, 04:20 AM

Meat is cheaper than metrx.

**.V.** · 09-Mar-06, 07:43 AM

Most brands of protein shakes are a good fill in - reasonably priced - and don't cut into the budget as much as high protein whole foods. They aren't a perfect replacement for whole food - but they do help.

rrouleau · 09-Mar-06, 09:05 AM

Another thing to add is..........dont just worry about the protein......make sure to get some carbs.....you said that your having a hard time gaining....add some more carbs to your diet. Oatmeal, brown rice, sweet potato, 100% whole wheat bread, etc.

br9divided · 13-Mar-06, 02:59 AM

been a little lazy past couple of days. having a hard time with money and other issues.. stressing me out. i plan on hitting the gym again tomorrow morning. i really really need to buy some more food though. i ate a lot today... but im still feel hungry and my house is empty. i do have a burrito i can go microwave but zapping stuff is totally useless.
i've been eating a lot of chicken, i'll try and add some more carbs

havnt lifted hard for a couple days. makes me feel bad. but i guess it really isnt that horrid.. little bit of a rest i suppose. i should be able to get in the gym everyday this week.. they've got me working nights again.. ew...

br9divided · 16-Mar-06, 12:45 PM

my job moved me to night shift again... i have the hardest damn time working out in the morning.. or even waking up. i hate sleeping in but it's so hard not to. got up early... and about to go to the gym again.. i just wish i could do it at nights like i like to.

**.V.** · 16-Mar-06, 08:38 PM

Man, when I used to work 3rd shift only, I loved it...I'd hit the gym, go home to bed, then wake up ready to have a great night. Now that I'm old and work 24 hour shifts - all nighters take away my motivation to hit the weights in the morning too. Here's wishing you good luck getting acclimated to your new schedule.

br9divided · 18-Mar-06, 09:56 PM

got robbed at gun point lastnight.. i guess that's what i get for trying to help somone.... anyway all the money i was carrying on me was for food. i guess im just going to have to not eat untill i get paid again...
really going to help with my bulking goal.
god, i hate people.

19-Mar-06, 06:51 AM

Man, that really sucks. Hope they catch the guy.

**.V.** · 19-Mar-06, 08:23 AM

That's awful. Were you able to give a good description to the police to help them catch him?

br9divided · 20-Mar-06, 01:32 AM

no, he was in a car i could barely see him. his plates were covered too.
theyll never find him.. ill just take it as a lesson.
anyway.
worked out again today. i really dont feel like i did enough though- didnt even get an hour's worth in. perhaps early tomorrow ill get in there again.
im being too impatient i want instant results but i know that never happens. too often i get depressed and dont feel like doing anything. it sucks... but im still keeping at it. guess im going to go eat again.

br9divided · 22-Mar-06, 02:14 AM

still working at it. it's becomming addicting again.
but im really excited. since ive started ive gained around 6lbs!
not much... but for me thats amazing. last year i worked so hard all year and only gained 10lbs. then i kinda got depressed and lost it all.
i think this may be the most i've weighed yet. can't really see much of a physical difference, but it really helps knowing there is one.